I went to a yoga retreat workshop on working with your intuition and moving past trauma.  I went with some of the women who meet at my house twice a month for our Circle.

This is what we learned. Feel free to take what you will and ignore what you don’t get or think is bizarre. I’ll go back and film it when I get back from Alaska and we start that new project… ah.. deep breath…

First of all the guru blew all of our “delicate female minds” as some rich white men have put it by telling us that as females we are mighty powerful and take on and in everything around us.  We are recepticles but not in a bad way, only if you allow yourself to be a dumpster.  She explained how she was taught by her teacher in India that the woman is a powerful energy giver (duh) and we take in energy, we move it around ourselves, clean it, wash it, give it our energy and then send it back to the Universe.  Kind of like a cosmic washing machine.  (that’s why if you’re spinning in trauma, the energy you’re taking in and giving out can be heavy and harsh in huge ways) She said that we are so powerful with our energy, that even when we make love to a man, we hold that man in our energy field for 7 years. wtf.  And then that man or men can feed off of our energy for those seven years and do it subconcsiously without even knowing it but we will feel the effects by being tired, not quite ourselves, drained etc.  Say wha?  I was like, “can you repeat that?”   What about the survivors who were raped repeatedly, who have men all around them?  What about those few late nights?  What about the one who never called back?  Ah, say wha? Is there a way to clean that machine of ours and the circle that surrounds it?

Why yes there is!  No way, do tell.  OK, get ready for this.  She gave us two techniques for clearing that are downright funny and who knows if they work or if we’re all “crazy witches” but that breathing technique I learned sure works so here goes.

Sit or stand (and you can go hide in the bathroom and do this if you need some space) and place your hands up next to your ears almost like you’re going to yell, “I can’t take this anymore!” and cover your ears.  Then you move your hands back and forth like you’re chopping at the air. I laughed because it looks so much like that scene in “Team America” when Gary does the “Sign of Distress”  Ahhhhh…   LMAO.   So anyway, move your hands back and forth like Gary and breathe.  Do that for as long as you can.  It’s like a big “wash that man outta my hair” move.  It looks funny and feels funny too.  The guru told us that it was energitically chopping away at any old belief patterns that were hanging on around our heads, any negative thoughts from others, projections, bad mojo etc.  Wash it out and breath while you’re doing it.  And laugh, go ahead and laugh as you clear your head - really.  Ha!

Then she told us about the swords.  I heard that word and perked up, not that I wasn’t already perked with my ‘brainwashing’ (which is another technique she gave about literally washing out your brain, that was wild and I’ll share that later)  Anyway, when I asked her how you get the men out if it hasn’t been 7 years and someone’s still feeding on you.  Yikes!  How do you cut that cord?  She said you get out your swords.  I got all giddy and excited.

What an amazing way to use your sword - once you have removed it from your body and have it in your hand.  That metaphor works so well and so many have really liked that.  But what do you do once you have it? Well, you chop out old patterns!  She said that you stand up, feet wide, and hold two swords in your hand. (imaginary, although if you have knives or swords or an actual sword it may be good to do a sword dance when you’re home alone so no one thinks your completely bonkers.  This could be a good thing for you cutters to shift the ritual of cutting yourself, to cutting away the ties that bind instead. Hmmm….)

So you stand up with your imaginary or real swords in both hands and make quick long sweeping cuts in front of you just like your literally cutting away ties that bind.  One hand after another.  Chop, chop.  If your sword is imaginary, flatten your palm like a blade and chop chop.  One arm after another.  Breathe as you do it.  You can get really creative too and slice away around you, making your sword move into a dance.  Picture whatever you have been holding energetically and cut it away.  This is for all binds, not just men in a sexual way, but relationships, old belief patterns, friendships, anything that you have taken in that could be feeding off of you, even you against yourself.  Cut the binds away instead of cutting yourself.  Powerful.

Now this does not mean it’s bad to be powerful and uplifting and supportive of the loves we have or have had.   This is about realizing and owning your own power and protecting it.  And it sure makes you look at running out and fulfilling that old sex and love addiction by sleeping with just anyone doesn’t it? I see you, you know who you are.  Think about that one!  7 years my friend, 7 years.  Of course I can already hear, “But I can just clean him out with my sword dance.”   Oh jeez…

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